directionless? rock on.

sometimes people (usually older adults/A++++ type people/your parents) ask you where you see yourself in five years.

five years?

i don't even know where I see myself tonight. or this weekend. or next week. or next month.

i mean i do see myself doing some key things:

-partying

-trying to have a good time

-chillin

-eating some meals

-rocking some cool outfits

-reading some good books

-travelling

-talking/hanging out with my rad friends

-flirting

-getting laid (fingers crossed)

-all the other little things that make me happy/amused (ie. not waiting in line for coffee, reading the paper before I go to work, eating rawkus breakfasts, not eating eggplant, dancing, drinking red stripe, etc...)

i've heard that us gen xers need to 'get a life', 'grow up' ecetera, ecetera. but really when will your life ever be as comittment free as to be exhorbitantly selfish ever again? i'm not invested in a career. this is my time. i can think about what i like to do. and maybe it's sad that i have no real long term goals, don't see myself growing up, and don't really even care if i have the same job and live in the same city in six months or a year.

when i was in elementary school, i had goals: to get the other girls to like me and to get to junior high alive. (and secretly, to become a catholic saint???)

when i was in junior high, i had goals: to get the boys to like me (and still the girls), to experience all the new 'bad' stuff as fast as possible, and to get to high school.

when i was in high school, i had goals: to do as many 'bad' things as possible without getting caught, to get the boys to like me (and still the girls), and to do well enough to graduate and to get into a cool university.

when i was in university, i had goals: to party as hard as I could and still manage to get a degree, and have fun while doing it all.

now, i have a job (supposed next step), and i don't have goals (other than the ones above, but those are more action items). but, i'm cool with that. it means the next step could be doing anything: travelling, having a real-ationship, getting fired, going back to school, eating a pb & j sandwhich, tripping on acid. really the possibilities are endless when you have no plan, and no plan to plan. rock on.

P.S.- I've noticed as of late, my blog is really word heavy. So, as a tribute to rocking on, above is my Jimmy who rocks, and who, i would love to rock his world.