yes, you can run away from a birthday!

So I'm off to Vernon this weekend for some poudre sauvage, or as a friend coined it; "More powder than Kate Moss has ever seen". For once, at least I'm anticipating the lonely feel on my birthday, and perhaps even feeling like a contributor. So not a powerless feeling at least. I've absenced myself from the expectations that my friends will rally around me on that day, and am aware that the other half of my family is halfway around the world. So there. You can run away from a Birthday. I can be 23 for at least one more year!

My parting three things I'm grateful for as a 23 (version A) year-old girl:
1. The presence of hilarious and inspiring company on Tuesday night.
2. The anticipation of a short but needed vacation from my life.
3. The friendship of a brillant artist in my life who makes images that can make daddies cry.

PS-My letter got published in the post yesterday. Boo ya Barbara Kay!

powder gods

Spiritual experiences don't just happen every day. I believe certain contributing factors lead to circumstances where you feel like you have just been transported into the clouds and felt the ropes to earthly pittances go slack. Basically your mind fucked when you realize real life will hit you in the face eventually. So what factors are needed to experience awesomeness? I believe it's about mind state- so anything that affects your mind state, wheather it be euphoria, sticky green or just plain old beer. So, you think- does getting high and watching a movie count. Maybe. If you're laughing so hard you lose all the blood from your brain and start thinking you're in the film. But the more likely venue? That would be travelling to a new spot, and seeing something from a new perspective, influenced by a picturesque or even horrifying vista.

This weekend, I kneeled at the altar of the powder gods and was rewarded with the ability to float across the earth, feeling weightless, free and perfectly in control. Completed by the backdrop of some amazing vistas, and inhuman heights- emphasizing how small we are in the big picture and making me feel just a little luckier to have this great feeling. And later? We were a drunk and rowdy crew, feeling invincible, just out for a good time in some amazing snow, playing games and having fun. Only one thing could have made the picture complete- a missing piece, but we'll anticipate her presence for next time. So, after a long day of board meetings, does any President call it a day? No, we continued on into the night, getting our work done and thanking the powder gods for blessing us with the spiritual experience.

Signing out as El Presidente, I will get on with the three things that have made me happy since my last post.
1. Powder.
2. Beer.
3. Good friends and family to party with. (Still missing you boo!)

the piscean roller coaster

Pisces are known to adapt to many different situations. They're also known to be emotional/moody. Seriously this blog can probably serve to document my apparent bi-polarness. Because tomorrow is friday. And I feel a lot more hopeful than I did on tuesday. Perhaps it's because I actually did some things at work today. Then again, maybe I just woke up on the righter side of bed.

I've been making an effort to call friends in Vancouver this week, and so far I think I've done quite well. It's wierd, I have this aversion to long phone conversations, but as soon as I'm done speaking with one of my friends, I always feel better. Perhaps this is simply a symptom of the texting generation- the more succinct, the better. But I've never had a real emotional text conversation really- except one incident where an ex told me he was hurting just as badly for another girl as I was for him, so he 'sympathized' with me. It's too hard when you can't hear the intonation and the tone of voice the person is speaking in. I mean, how was I to know if the 'sympathy' was sarcastic or sincere? Nonetheless, I think my age group is on the cusp, but I think this is what younger generations are turning to for those intense emotional moments. Isn't it easier to break up with someone remotely than to their face? It creates a disconnection and I think, more willingness to play games with people's emotions. You can't really suffer the reprocussions of your actions if you don't see a person's reaction and are affected by it.

I digress, but connecting with people is something I'd like to improve on, and perhaps that's why my week is looking up- I have several rendezvous with a few friends I haven't seen in a while this weekend.

So three things that I'm grateful for in the last 24 hours are as follows:
1. A colleague at work transferred all of my music from my ipod onto my computer (now I won't have to worry if my zombie, back from the dead ipod finally dies).
2. A professor I was worried about getting a recommendation for grad school from emailed me back within an hour of my request!
3. Haven't seen a movie in a long time, and last night saw 'The Reader' with my mom. Was a great film, really made you think. (and cry....)